Aren't You Tired?

I don't even know if my days are getting better each and everyday of it. I feel like... everyday is the SAME. WHY?!

What do you even do in 24 hours and 7 days and 12 months and a year or whatever that is???

Wakes up-takes a shower-puts this and that-school-school-and school-extra class-sometimes I take naps (well I have to)-homework and homework and naaah... I don't really do them like I used to. But it'll repeat EVERYDAY and EVERY WEEK.

I think I really need holidays. LIKE REAL HOLIDAYS. Not just staying at home and gluing my bum to my chair and staring at my computer EVERYDAY. God.... I'm tired.

I know, if I compare how my life is to some unlucky people out there is way different. And I'm definitely luckier. But am I not allowed to say this things? Or how I'm complaining this and that? 
Is like what they say that  
"Telling someone they can't be sad because others have it worse is like saying someone can't be happy because others have it better"
I do prefer letting it out to some people I can trust. But, even though I trust my mum and dad. I don't bother having the intention to tell my problems. Unless, it's about my results on tests or how annoying a teacher could get. I prefer telling it to my best buddies. Yes, but hey you know? Not all people that you use to be close to can be with you every time you need them. Not everyone could be by your side every time you want them to. So sometimes.... you just have to keep it to yourself. 

Do you feel the weight on your chest? What kind of word that could describe this feeling tho? Hmmm.........pain? 
You hold it up too long and too much that you don't even know what you're focusing on. When your head says no but your heart says yes. That confuses you on what you should do. What's best for you. And so the weight of the pain becomes heavier and heavier that you can't even hold it your self anymore that you sleep with tears falling.

How dramatic. But that happens a lot. True?

So this is not all because of school. Your life. As a young teenager, tryna show the best, strong, wild out of every one. And that feeling you get when you're not getting appreciated from someone you love. When you're DYING tryna talk to him/her and calm your fucking gaps between you and him/her, but all you get lead you to disappointments. AND THAT MAKES YOU TIRED.
U know my feelings mate? 

Baah, sometimes you really need a break. You really need to escape from reality. Reality sucks asses. I do hate it, but what can I do? What's the purpose of living actually? Life gives us lessons. 

Right. Why am I writing this shits, lol.

I wanna go somewhere far away. To the beach maybe, white sands. I miss white sands. Would someone kidnap and take me there? You, maybe?