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All of them changed this year.
Why?
Did your life change too this year?
Do you know why?
Wow.
I feel like talking to myself.
To my laptop, actually.
Laptop in front of me, so bright aye?
Earphones in my ear. Volume -----51-----
Not sleeping properly. Phone by my side. No credit.
Internet got fucked up after some lectures.
Got annoyed by brother and how some dude just playing with my feelings.
I know your name starts with F.
Stupid me. I fell for that.
Was that only a rumour? About you saying that stuff about me?
Now you got another one, but you’re still talking to me?! I’m confused.
No one to talk to right now.
So sad.
Hahaha.
?
This made me feel I wanna change back to my old me.
When there wasn’t any problem to solve, except Maths.
When there was no this “crush” and “love” thingy magic.
When I was innocent, small, and always smile.
When my feelings were always light and happy.
When I got lots of friends or cousins to hang out with.
When I was in Indonesia.
When there was not much technology like this now.
When I got my freedom to wear anything/go enywhere.
When I still got my grandpa.
Ok, stop right there.
This song just remind me of my old time; Pelangiku and Andai Aku Telah Dewasa by Sherina Munaf
Huh.
Sucks much?
No YouTube or anything. Oh, no MSN to have a chat with you. Oh, no Facebook to stalk to. Jokes.
I’m writing on Microsoft Word. Hah.
Then post this the next day. IF I can be bothered.
How lame.
Hiding from my parents to do this?
Tired of this stuff.
People would say, I need a life. Do I? Oh, I got one already, and it just got fucked up each an everyday.
And that’s what in my mind now, laptop.
I’m thinking what would the other people think, and I’m telling you how I feel. Is it okay?
ZOMFG! I’m getting weirder :o
Who cares.
My laptop, my Microsoft Word, my blog, my mind, and my hand.
Get a L I F E
Well I can’t can I if they say no this, no that?
Hate my life now. One lamp is 3 meters away from me, sad music’s on, can’t sit still, back is hurting, hair a mess, life.. is a mess.
Should’ve not wish that I wanna be a teenager when I was small.
But anyway, I would still grow. Hah.
Should’ve asked for advices before I turned to a teenager.
But too late anyway, we can’t rewind the times, right?
What a waste.

5/10/10 -10:50pm

Problems?

Look, bitches.
If we're going out, STOP MAKING SHITS! LIKE.. PROBLEMS!
SERIOUSLY!
FUCK!
If we're hanging out, tell me when, where, what time till what time, who's coming, and what are we going to do!
There, done!
For those that's NOT SURE, tell theeeeeeeeem to tell you if they are coming or not ASAP!
AND YO! If you have problems, ask the one that created the event!
If you don't know how to contact her, then just ask that question!
Not aaaaaaaaaaaaaaall question,
that made me have to ask her sooo many question, texting, with my dad's phone.
And since I have told her, she got a bit mad, and who got it? ME! Not you!
PLEASSSSSSSSSSSE, maan, if she cant come early and doesn't want 'them' to come,
REPLY IT NICELY! BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE THAT PROBLEM! IT'S NOT MMMMMMMMMMYYYY PROBLEM!
You could've say it "oh well, yea, but blah blah blah" NOT "oh no, if you're gonna listen to her, and not listen to me, blah blah blah, and its not her choice blah blah blah blaaaaaaaaah"! FUCK! I'm fucking tired alright? DON'T YOU KNOW WHO I AM TO YOUUU? Don't you have a heart?
I asked you if you're fuckin ok and you said you AREEE ok? But what's with the reply, mate?
And I told you that if something's wrong, tell me and I told you why I'm asking that, but do you really know why?
DO YOU?
Guess not.
Well, it's becauseeee, you're my best friend, you're the closest one.
I mean come on? Don't you know all this stuff?
Fucking faggot== (not to you)
I feel like swearing, hah
Tired of this stuff.
If you guys have problem, call each other! Don't just put me in the middle, when its NOT my fuckin problem!! AND don't think I'm a messenger, because I'm NOOOOOOOOOOOOOT a technology stuff that you guys suppose to use!
I'm a human! Your friend!
That has feelings.
AND if you're MAAAAAAAAAD at her, don't bring the madness to me?? Did I do something wrong?
I know that'll make you be in a bad mood, but please, be nice a little?
Fudgee==
I don't have anyone to talk to right now, cos almost everyone that I used to have, is gone.
It pisses me.
So I wrote it here, just to let it release.
I know it's not a good idea, but where else?
Can't be fucked to write with pencil on my "Secret Diary"
prefer typing more.
SOOOO please, know how I feel in between, you two? Know how I feel in my situation?
Of course you guys "don't really" know how it feels.
Cos some of you doesn't fuckin care.
I mean, I always be there for you's, Wasn't I?
Oh, maybe, when I'm not there, you guys didn't tell me? So you thought I was ignoring?
Huh
BUT seriously, where are you's when I need you guys? How come you guys doesn't really know how it feels?
Sometimes it hurts.
And bad thing is, I don't tell you guys when/why I got hurt.
Why?
Ask yourself.
Do you's care?
Hah.
Whatever.
But seriously, don't bring those madness to me, when I'm not involved.
Good
Bye.

Pergilah Kau - Sherina :)

Geeee.. The lyrics and the beat is soooo sad D: Plus, love the video maan, creative ahah(?) ♥ Sherinaa



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